@starbucks now…
sitting in a crowded ( yet far more spacious/lonelier than those delightful darshinis in Bangalore) place…The soft music lulls me into a comfort ,I have not experienced for quite some time now.. yet being on the verge of an unquestionably defining moment of my life makes me unfathomably nervous.Never have I felt this way, not even the day i joined Infy, the day I couldn’t meet anks’ accusing eyes, day i left infy… I wonder if i could live the last 3 years differently ,would I? probably not.Yet I have changed uncontrollably and irretrievably for the good or the bad in the last year ,I cannot recognize me anymore. Is that a good thing? Well I like to think its a sort of give and take.
One of my favorite quotes is a sentence for HHGTTG ” I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.” I hope thats true.
Well my saturnine nature makes these days of unemployment especially bad. Its the stupid mood swings, I say. One moment I’m as cheerful as Louis Armstrong and the next I’m deep in the dumps. Depressed? May be so,But Ive been this way as far back as I remember.well thats something I should change probably. Im wondering whether I should even publish this rant..dont judge me now mom & dear sister, There will be happier times soon..Well I sure hope so. morbid thoughts are not something I look forward to , but I know they are there waiting to pounce just have they done a number of times previously.
The thing I miss the most is gymming. The first thing that I do after I get a job is get back to shape, Ive lost 10 pounds from 150 lbs in a matter of 3 months .Precious since Ive struggled and gained 15 lbs since last june.
To the gym then
My white mocha is almost empty and I have a bus to catch back to the university